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aah, 12 and jakurai please ;;

hypnomicimagines:

Jinguji Jakurai: 

12. Sneaking away to a hidden corner to share a secretive kiss.

It was a terrible thing to betray your friends, to do it for their own sake without ever being able to explain.

Jakurai hoped Doppo and Hifumi understood he would do anything to protect them, that he’d rather they hate him than have their life threatened because of Chuuoku’s desperate attempt to get ahold of Jakurai’s ability. Agreeing to work under them had been one of the hardest decisions he ever had to make, knowing he might be heading back towards the assassin life he had left behind but seeing no other option. It left him in quite the depressed state, living life as if he was nothing but a worker bee with no thoughts or feelings of his own; he was still plotting, planning, working out ways to take Chuuoku down from the inside but there were times he couldn’t help but feel it was all just pointless.

 “We’ll find a way back to them, you know.”

Jakurai both hated and loved how observant you were, using it to your advantage often, especially when it came to the emotionally closed off doctor. You had followed him into this hellish life, eyes blazing as you demanded to be taken alongside him, Jakurai insisting he would never go quietly if you weren’t allowed to be his assistant. You were both watched heavily and rarely given a moment to talk alone, the government officials weren’t stupid and were taking no chances on allowing you both to stage some sort of coup. Every movement was watched so carefully that Jakurai was sure there were cameras even in your rooms where you’d occasionally meet up to talk without others around, the peace lasting briefly but still a reverie from the monotony of this new life.

Jakurai couldn’t even enjoy the kisses that once brought him so much comfort and joy, now struck by fear at the potential punishment you might receive should you ever be caught. Even the secretive ones that are shared on rare moments when no one was looking, where you very quickly leaned over and then looked away from him like you hadn’t even moved from your spot, were starting to make him feel on edge. He wanted nothing more than to continue to romance you as you deserved but it was a desire he knew had to be put on hold.

“Don’t speak so loudly. You never know who might be listening…” Jakurai casted a mistrustful glance towards the corner of the room but it was likely too dark to make out anything that had just occurred in the room, “We shouldn’t keep meeting up like this. They could hurt you too.”

“The agreement was that we work together if they wanted your full cooperation so…”

“And they forbade any relationship between us,” Jakurai muttered, trying to push you away but struggling to do so; this scene felt so familiar, something he had done before he’d come to terms with his feelings and now he was regretting every single moment he had denied you when it was actually safe to love you freely. He had made many mistakes in life but getting you killed because of his desires would not be one of them. “Please don’t make this harder.”

“Sorry, sorry,” The rejection hurt but it would hurt more to see Jakurai suffering over you wanting something as trivial as wanting another kiss, “But I need to know you’re not giving up. I can’t be the only one hoping.”

“…I haven’t.” Jakurai’s words sparked hope in your heart, knowing that if he hadn’t given up there truly was something left to fight for. For all your friends on the outside, wondering what was going on, fighting their own battles, the two of you would just have to pray for them to be okay. And for the family, for poor Hifumi and Doppo who missed the two of you with every fiber of their being, you hoped that they would be able to wait for you just a little longer.

Families were meant to be reunited.